JEHOVAH RAPHA "I am the Lord Your Physician or I am the Lord Your Healer - this name especially was a Name God prophetically spoke about Himself, not one that someone gave Him. Exodus 15:26.

Okay, so you believe God can heal but has He?

I’m glad you asked that question. On Wednesday the 7th of December I went to church to have the elders pray over me in obedience to the book of James. As I stated before, I was depressed, had memory loss, had cancer, high blood pressure and could not have physical relations with my wife (due to the cancer treatment). Jesus promised my healing during the service and I left with my heart full of joy. The pastor had also taught that the Lord promised sweet sleep for His children, so I asked Him on the way home to help me sleep. I have not slept without the assist of pills for a number of years.

I was able to sleep that night without aid, although it did take a while to fall asleep. Since that time I have slept without help and am getting up fewer times during the night. I would sometimes get up as much as once an hour before, but last night only got up twice. I sleep soundly and peacefully, and am rested. This is a big deal for me, since I haven’t really slept well for over 10 years.

I have been on anti-depression medication for 5 years, and still had bouts that would just wear me out. Since that night I have neither taken the medicine nor needed it. It’s been 1 week now and there is just no reason to take it. Not only have I not been depressed but His joy is so overwhelming that I am in complete peace. I have so much patience now and feel like a new man. He truly gives the ‘peace that passes understanding’.

Warning: the following is rather personal but is a major part of my healing:

The cancer treatment completely took away my sex drive. I neither desired sex nor could I perform if I had wanted to. I had resolved myself to living without it even though I knew it was affecting my relationship with Kathy. We loved each other but could no longer enjoy the intimacy intended in the marriage relationship. Now, you need to understand that I could NOT have sex. It was physically impossible for me. And, I did not desire it anymore. It was not a part of my life.

On the Friday after the Lord touched me I came home from work and greeted Kathy as she was preparing the evening meal. I gave her a kiss as I always do but this time I felt an old and familiar stirring in my body. I kissed her again and told her what I was feeling and she laughed since I had not said anything like that for years. We sat down to eat dinner (the grandkids were watching a movie and would eat later) and the stirring in my body kept increasing until it consumed my thoughts and I just had to laugh. My body was responding in a way that had not occurred for a long time, but there was an unmistakable sign that my sex drive had returned. I told Kathy that we needed to be excused to the bedroom and we got up, locked the bedroom door, locked the bathroom door and then hid in our walk-in closet. It was there that we once again enjoyed the intimacy of marriage. It had been nearly 5 years and afterwards I cried like a baby and she laughed and laughed. My God can not only heal the human body, but can restore the effects of years of treatments! We knew this was an unmistakable sign from God that what He promised was coming to pass.

I will meet with my doctor tomorrow to discuss my medication and I’ll tell him at that time that I won’t be taking it again. I’ll continue to be tested so that God can receive the glory that is due Him, but I am not the least bit worried. He holds the number of my days and He knows my body, and I trust only in Him.

I’m sure there are many that will be skeptical and will try to explain away what God has done, but I pity them and their unbelief. I know what it’s like because I lived that way for many years. But when God restores and quickens your heart as He has mine, there is only peace, hope and love. Doubt must be fought with faith and the sureness of His word. Fortunately, the word will not return to Him without accomplishing what He has intended. He WILL receive all the glory and praise, whether we do it here on this earth or when He demands it on the day of judgment. I will rest in Him and His word. I will let it fill me, cleanse me and encourage me every day and as many times a day as I can. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. I want my faith increased to the miracle stage where I can minister to others who are sick and wounded, bound up in sin and in need of forgiveness. I want my life to be an example of what it’s like to follow Him unconditionally and to show what His love is really like.

I hope this is encouraging. I will continue to update as I have things to share.