A Musician Without A Band Is Not Really Happy

I retired from doing the worship leader stuff a couple of years ago. I've still got a band that I can round up pretty quickly, but we don't have a regular gig anymore. I find myself wanting to get back in now; wanting to have something to work for; wanting to play with others on a weekly basis and it's just not come together.

David and Dennis and I had the idea to put together a 3 piece, but because of their schedules we've decided to not do it. David's business has him traveling too much to learn the material and make it to practice every week, so it just didn't work out. Now I've found myself with a big question mark over my head. And everywhere I go it just stays with me (like a dark cloud hovering just above my head).

I've called a couple of buddies that I've worked with before and neither have panned out yet. Ricky can't because he's starting a new business and George had to cancel lunch with me yesterday because his church service went on too long. It would be great to get George to work with. He is an amazing musician who can do it all and do it well. He's a drummer now, but is also very good on guitar and bass. He's tied up at his church every Sunday and that may keep him from agreeing to anything else, but we'll see.

I've got the best schedule now, because I work regular hours; am home by 5 and am not committed to play at my church. In fact, we've just started getting involved at our church so we're not tied down at all.

So, I've been asking the Lord over and over about what I'm supposed to do now as a musician. I don't feel like I'm supposed to get involved much at this church, but I don't know what else I can do. The sermon yesterday really helped though. The pastor was talking about something altogether different than my problem, but he quoted a verse that really spoke to me, "Isa.30:21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."

God will let me know what He wants me to be involved in. I just have to keep asking Him and keep knocking on people's doors until I find out His plan. He is not in the habit of withholding information for spite so I know I can count on Him for this.

Okay, my delete key has just messed up and it's driving me crazy. On a Mac it's the backup key, which I use constantly. So, I'm wrapping this up now. You get the picture anyway.